MACARTHUR

Merong Matigas Merong Malambot
Merong Tuwid Merong Kulot
Merong Buo Merong Durog
At Merong Taong Di Basta Lumulubog
Batung-Bato Ka Na Ba?
Rock-Rockan Na!




The other night as I was watching TV, I saw the advertisement of Fully Booked (A new establisment, a 5-story building full of books) and it featured must read books and one of them is Bob Ong's new..."MacArthur".

I have collected all of Bob Ong's piesces and this one I must buy. So last night I dropped by to our local bookstore and fortunately they have stocks and I bought one.

But as I started reading MacArthur I've noticed that this one is different from the past writings of Bob Ong. It is a short story...and it has a serious theme.

...Kwentong Addict. Usapang Addict. Salita ng mga Addict. Buhay ng apat na magkakaibigang Addict. This book is full of "shit" and curses from each character.

But I have found the lesson nearly at the end of the book when someone said.."Dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. Kung di mo pagtitiyagaan, anak, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. Sobrang lugi. Kung alam lang yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko e walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela..."

Nice one!

----Why this book was entitled "MacArthur"? ...from "shit" that doesnt want to go down that keeps on coming back no matter how many times you flush it. "I shall return" it says.

Yuck!

Basahin nyo na lang mga Bogaloids!!!

Hahaha!!

august birthday blues...

madami sa min august celebrants
each has their way of celebrating it

...my brother
he went home...walang nangyari kasi nakalimutan ng nanay ko na birthday nya
i was supposed to treat him for lunch pero he went back to manila
sad =(

...my bandmates (at church)
celebrated at Bayview at Shell compound
pang pamilya ang dating

...my friends at shell
surprised "kiddy" party for them
with birthday party hats para sa mga matatandang gusto pa ring mgaing bata

...ako
di ko pa maisip kung anong gagawin ko
1. umuwi na lang at matulog
2. have some couple of friends at san mig station (kaso di ko trip ang band RNB kasi pag thursdays)
3. pumunta sa Library at Lipa (comedy bar na puno ng kabadingan)
4. pumunta ng manila (malayo kaso andun na lahat)

as of last night...im not in the mood to celebrate
papakuripot muna...

Come Back Down

..a song from Lifehouse. Tagal ko ng fave ito...

The song has a deeper meaning though. If you take time to reflect on it, it is as if God is telling you "Yeah i know it all, i know how it really feels. if you're going to find your way again, come back to me."

I do not consider myself as religious, i don't believe in religion anyway. Faith is not based on religion, it is based on relationship.

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COME BACK DOWN


Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide

All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside

I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you

I think it's time to just move on

Procastinating

...nakakatamad mag-update.
dami ko gusto ilagay kaso tinatamad ako...

Deeply In Love

This song really strucked me...For days it plays over and over in my head.

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DEEPLY IN LOVE - Hillsong

In my life, you heard me say I love you
How do I show you it's true?
Hear my heart, it longs for more of you
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You have stollen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You and I together forever
Nothing can stand in the way
My love for you grows stronger each new day
I've fallen deeply in love with you

Turn Back Time

How I wish I could turn back the time
And make everything right
Change the path I took?
Be more wiser than I should
Guarded myself from it all

I have this fear inside me
Eating me up, swallowing me whole
Covering my dreams
Cutting me into piesces

Negativity
Pessimism
This is what I become
Will someone accept it?

A broken vessel
Will not be bought that easily
Not be taken seriously
Reality

It's Complicated

Sounds familiar?!
Yeah, I'm borrowing Friendster's tag for those people who has complicated relationships.
Those people who can't even describe what status they are in like now.
Are they single or not. Available or taken. In a relationship or domestic partnership.
That tag is used for those undecided, confused or...even, just playing around.

So much for that tag...I'm just using it for a thought that came to my mind.
LIFE IS SO COMPLICATED!

My friend and I were exchanging emails before lunch today. Over the course of our conversation I just concluded (with a sigh...hayyy) "Life so complicated lalo na as you grow older" and he said "C'est La Vie"

Why does it have to be?

Why to count millions of stars instead of only one?
Why to have a dozen of dead planet and just have one who have life?
Why can't we be in two places at once?
Why are there too many contradictions?
Why love exists and hate survives?
Why feel joy in the presence of pain?
Why are there too many questions and yet you have no choice but to live this 'thing' called LIFE?

The world goes round, people change
Everything turns
You found one, you lose one

When I was a child life was just simple. It is as if everything is a play. You don't think of the future that much. You just live for a day. Carefree. As you grow older you think of everything...the past, the present, and the future.

Life maybe complicated but in all its complications...it is worth living for.

Dad's Definition Of...

I asked my dad over lunch what's the difference between a "stalker" and a "boylet" (well...he based it on me daw) Hahaha...I want to hit his head.



According to him:



Stalkers - ay ang mga lalaking may gusto sa yo pero ayaw mo

Boylets - ay ang mga lalaking may gusto sa yo pero ayaw mo kaso hinahayaan mo na lang kasi nakakalibre ka



...then he added "See, I wasn't born yesterday...I was born even before that

What's Your Story

Stories can be easily made
Out from the heart
Into the mouth it speaks
Whatever reasons behind
It flows like a blood

Stories often life changing
It creates
It destroys
A life gained
A life lost

Stories evolve easily
Doesn't stay the same
Like a bird it frees
Like a lion it devours

Stories...
Can be forgotten
Or might stay...
To those who hear

Friday Syndrome

Time is so slow every Friday
An hour and a half to go but how I wish it is already 4
I'm watching this amazing drummer Mike Portnoy...excellent!
From a progressive metal band...Dream Theater!

Who's the Dream Theater anyway?
From Wikipedia.com here' a short description about the band

Dream Theater is a progressive metal band formed by three students at the Berklee College of Music in 1985. In the 22 years since its inception, Dream Theater has become one of the most commercially successful progressive bands since the height of progressive rock in the mid-1970s, despite being relatively unknown in mainstream rock circles. The band's two highest selling albums are Images and Words (1992), which was awarded a gold record although it reached only #61 on the Billboard 200 charts; and Awake (1994) which reached #32 on the Billboard 200. Dream Theater has sold over two million albums in the U.S., and over six million albums and DVDs worldwide.

The band is well known for the technical proficiency of its instrumentalists, who have won many awards from music instruction magazines. Dream Theater's members have collaborated with many other notable musicians. Guitarist John Petrucci was named as the third player on the G3 tour for six times, more than any other invited guitarist, following in the footsteps of Eric Johnson, Robert Fripp, and Yngwie Malmsteen.

The World Has Its Rights

I was so out of place in this world I am in right now. What was I thinking coming to a place like this? From a company of fifteen to a hundred or so. I've never been to a place where there are so many people to deal with. From the art world to oil and gas. From creativity to technicality.

When I finally got the job I was, well, a bit excited and mostly confused. Career wise it was not wise...at all. I just wanted a job not far from home.

Working here was easy. I came to understand the nature of my work...so far and so good. The people here has its variation. Different thoughts, personalities and characters.

One thing that shocked me was GOSSIP. Yeah, even in men's world...come to think of it. Someone told me men are better gossiper than women. Haha! Guess they are!

I was a victim of gossip and prejudice here. At first I just wanted to "kill 'em all". But later on I got to, well, get along. And because of that I developed my own quote as a refuge.

Here it goes:
"The world has its right to judge you. But you also have a right to prove or disprove their judgment!"

Yey! So what?! I don't care what they think of me! I know myself better than them. Saka sino nahirapan kakaisip, ako ba? Sila naman di ba?

A Comeback

Friday...
After ten or so years...
My feet led me to my last memory of her...
First of June...

Her grave lie beneath an old tree
I've got nothing to place at her head
Not even a candle
Not even a flower

Her grass used to be trimmed
Green as the bermuda supposed to be
But it is now withered...dried up
There are other dead people beside her now

I don't know why I can't even get close
Maybe because I've changed a lot
Or maybe because I just don't want to remember
How she was buried 23 years ago

Mary June Abella Torrefranca Taotjo
June 2, 1957 to November 6, 1984
...a beginning...and an end

When you're happy and you know it...

CLAP! CLAP! YAHOO!!!

Out of nowhere my dad suddenly said..."Bili kita drumset turuan mo ko."
And we did! Yesterday!

Yehey!

Missing Link

I pulled out her picture once again from my wallet. I always keep it to where I can easily find it just so I can refresh my mind to what she really looks like. That's what I do whenever her image becames blurry on my mind. That's all I got from her. That's the least I could do to remember her.

I don't remember much about her. I don't really know her. So many stories been told about her. Wonderful words spoken. But to all of which I can't relate. Her blood flows in me but I will forever have a blank description to the woman who carried me inside her for months. But I can't blame myself for such ignorance and unrecognition.

She died when I was three. It seemed that time was taken from me.

Fragments of memories doesn't help much. It is so unclear. There's a hole in me. A missing link to who I really am.

Often time I wish she's still here, my life would have been a lot different from what I have right now. But sometimes I just leave it be for I am content to what had happened so far in my life.

The first time I heard this song on MTV I was struck by its message and then I was certain to whom I will offer it.

This is to the woman to which I was rooted...the mother that I've never known.


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"Gone Away" - The Offspring (Ixnay on the Hombre)

Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal, it's so unfair

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels, yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

Leaving flowers on your grave
To show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could tradeI would

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings, yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away

I reach to the sky
And call out your name
Oh please let me tradeI would

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels, yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

The Silent Scream

Deceit...
Doubt...
Insecutiry...
Infidelity...
Fear...

I'm wandering in circles
I can't get out of it
And so it seems
Where did all began?
How will it end?

Precautions didn't came on time
Advices came in too late
Those words flew away
Before I was able to make use of them

How will you able to rescue me?
Help me find my way out?
Start all over again?
Or are you another hole to dig in?

Do I still deserve to hope?
Do broken wings still can fly?
Does my scarred face still has its place in you?
Or was it all just a vain desire?

Please accept me for what I have become...

WISH LIST

hai....1:00 AM na gising pa rin ako. pano ba naman kasi eto ako nagddownload ng mga albums hindi lang para sa sarili ko, kundi para sa mga kaibigang bato ang mga ulo. para san ba ito? wala lang para sa ikaliligaya lang ng mga tenga namin. dahil dito nakabuo sila ng wish list ng mga rock bands na gusto ulit nila marinig ang mga tugtugan. naguumpisa pa lang ako...goodluck na lang kasi masyadong matrabaho ang kanilang mga kahilingan.

Wish list:
1. Sepultura
2. Megadeath
3. Pantera
4. Black Sabbath
5. AC/DC
6. Soulfly
7. Coul Chamber
8. Guns N Roses

...ako ay isang download master...ngunit isa ring alipin. waaahhhh....
...hai d ko na kaya. matutulog na muna ako...

The Unforgiven Vs. The Unforgiven II

Which is better?

The songs are no stranger to a rock band listener. Composed by James Hetfield of the Metallica, these two songs will definetely give you an LSS (last song syndrome), at least for me. I've been savoring myself with Metallica's songs for almost three weeks now. That's why this thought of comparing the two Unforgiven songs came into me. Well i am a little biased because i like the II more than the first but for the sake of my friend emerson who likes the first more...i dont care! hehe. he has his chance to comment to this post.

There's a more dramatic introduction in II than in I. The Unforgiven II's intro gives more anticipation to the song before the plucking part. The duet of the guitar and the drums makes your head bang unlike the intro of the first which is some what melo. But I like the first's guitar solos. it is a mixture of classic and rock. the two guitar blended it well. James Hetfield's vocals is much stronger and dramatic on the second. I like the drum pattern on the ssecond. But hey there will be no Unforgiven II if there is no Unforgiven. In terms of lyrics it was like a story. The Unforgiven tells his story of being a person in misery, being...yeah, unforgiven to his mistakes. The Unforgiven II is the continuation of the story...he asks if he'll open the door to the one he is waiting for but like him, the person is also unforgiven.

here's the lyrics:

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The Unforgiven

New blood joins this earth
And quickly he's subdued
Through constant pained disgrace
The young boy learns their rules
With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on he's known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will they'll take away

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been
What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please them all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
He's battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been
What I've feltWhat I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven
You labeled me
I'll label you
So I dub thee unforgiven

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The Unforgiven II

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you
Lay beside me, under wicked sky
The black of day, dark of night, we share this paralyze
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining...

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you....
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, But she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there...

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you....
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are you're eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you....
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
The one who waits for you....
Oh what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you.... (So I dub thee unforgiven....)
Oh, what I've felt....Oh, what I've known....
I take this key (never free...)
And I bury it (never me...) in you
Because you're unforgiven too....
Never free....
Never me....
'Cause you're unforgiven too....Oh

hello world!!!

this is my first post from this url. oh well, i've been posting blogs from different services but what i hate about it is that it sends notifications to people's email addresses every time i make an update. im a bit of a moody person. sometimes i just want to write just for the passion of it. and for me it is not necessary to send notifications of it every time i write one.

with this spot...well, i can go anonymous =)