Missing Link

I pulled out her picture once again from my wallet. I always keep it to where I can easily find it just so I can refresh my mind to what she really looks like. That's what I do whenever her image becames blurry on my mind. That's all I got from her. That's the least I could do to remember her.

I don't remember much about her. I don't really know her. So many stories been told about her. Wonderful words spoken. But to all of which I can't relate. Her blood flows in me but I will forever have a blank description to the woman who carried me inside her for months. But I can't blame myself for such ignorance and unrecognition.

She died when I was three. It seemed that time was taken from me.

Fragments of memories doesn't help much. It is so unclear. There's a hole in me. A missing link to who I really am.

Often time I wish she's still here, my life would have been a lot different from what I have right now. But sometimes I just leave it be for I am content to what had happened so far in my life.

The first time I heard this song on MTV I was struck by its message and then I was certain to whom I will offer it.

This is to the woman to which I was rooted...the mother that I've never known.


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"Gone Away" - The Offspring (Ixnay on the Hombre)

Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal, it's so unfair

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels, yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

Leaving flowers on your grave
To show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could tradeI would

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings, yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away

I reach to the sky
And call out your name
Oh please let me tradeI would

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels, yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away