BeAtinG ThOugHtz

Balik Batangueno...

2010-04-03T08:18:00.002+08:00

Ang mga nakakadugong salita ay ngayo'y nagbabalik...hindi ko man sya naintindihan pero sige post ko na rin.

Ala! Ang bata na nakagat ng guyam ay atungal na, bago ginalaw pa naman ng kapatid kaya lalong nag alma . Hanggang sa nagalit ang ina. Iyon, napag asbaran pa. Medyo naulaga yata, kaya kumaripas ng takbo at patikar na. Mandin kay nagsungasob digat na harhar na ang lulor. Banday kana ay ina, napaawa naman. Ang sabe'y "Siya parine at ikaw ay humambo muna at napakatubal na ng iyong salapot." Pinagsabihang "huwag kang magdadamusak at paldak na ang ating bang bang. Pagka ikaw ay napasal, kumain ka na at pig-an mo ng kalamunding ang hawot. Pagkatapos mong maghiso, ikaw ay popundo na laang at huwag kang la-adyo kung saan saan, at baka ka mag sungaba ay buburingki ka."Aba! Tulig nga naman ang bata. Bago maya maya pa ay panay na naman ang yaw yaw. At tutuong ipinagpapa-arak ang laruan. Ngay-oy nahili ang kapatid, hanggang sa nagkaribok.Ala! Di laang na namang nagarote. Ka antak din ng mga pangyayari.
(Bumibili ng kameseta) Magara ga ire? Sa siya. at akong magpapamulay pa at kailangang ko ng salapi. Saan ga naligwit ang aking kalpi?
Isang dukhang binatilyong Batangueno ang nakasaksak ng taga-Maynila sa town plaza nung kapistahan ng kanilang bayan. Sa Maynila ginanap ang hearing. Dahil mahirap lamang si Batangueno, at walang aral, mag-isa na lamang nagpunta sa Maynila. Nagpahatid na lamang sa bus terminal at lumuwas kahit wala siyang alam.Sa korte:Judge: "Iyo ngang isalaysay ang tunay na pangyayari.:Batangueno: " Aba eh, ako ho'y paligor-ligor lamang sa plaza, yan ga namang hong salibuy-buyan nang salibuy-buyan ang mga tao, eh may isang timalog na babangla bangla ay aking nasangge ng kaunti. Aba'y bigla ho akong sinampiga. Ala , yung dukot ko ho ng aking kampit, bigla kong sinakyod, inabot ko sa tagiliran, inuraol ko ng inuraol, e di pangga-aw na ho. Nagkaribok ngayon ang mga tao, nangagsikamod at nagdagisdisan na ng takbo. Mga damit ko hong bagwit kung saan saan nasang-it, nilimut ko na laang hong maigi.... ah kung inabot ko pa uli'y siguradong tilhak sya sa akin.:Pinaulit ng Judge at yun uli ang sinabi. Sumuko na ang judge at hindi maintidihan kahit ilang ulit ang salaysay. Na-dismiss ang kaso.

12 Little Things Every Filipino Can Do To Help Our Country

2010-04-03T07:57:00.002+08:00

...or every man can do to his own country that is.

My boyfriend gave me this little book from his team building seminar last week. I want to share to you these things, little it may seems, but it could make a difference in our lives and our country.

Could it be that our love for Pinas is the only thing that is missing that is why our country is like this?

The book was written by Atty. Alexander L. Lacson. Finished law at UP Diliman and took post graduate studies at Harvard Law School, Cambridge, Mass.

He believes that every Filipino is part of the SOLUTION to our nations's problems., and that each one of us is part of the HOPE we seek. (www.alexlacson.net)

1. Follow traffic rules. Follow the law
2. Whenever you buy or pay for anything, always ask for an official receipt
3. Don't buy smuggled goods. Buy local. Buy Filipino.
4. When you talk to others, especially foreigners, speak positively about us and our country.
5. Respect your traffic officer, policeman, and soldier.
6. Do not litter. Dispose your garbage properly. Segregate. Recycle. Conserve.
7. Support your church.
8. During elections, do your solemn duty.
9. Pay your employees well.
10. Pay your taxes.
11. Adopt a scholar or a poor child.
12. Be a good parent. Teach your kids to follow the law and love our country.

It is time to love Philippines more...before it is really too late.

It also takes faith not to believe

2008-12-14T14:39:00.007+08:00

...call it atheism. someone who doesn't believe that there is someone who is above us that is all powerful and all knowing. A being, a person...call it God. Living life without it...i call it religion.

i was once an atheist. i didnt know where or why i came up to a decision that there is no God but there was a point that i just simply concluded that his existence was just a hoax. a belief that man made just to believe in something or someone. Man just created God for a purpose, whatever that is. Ironically, there is just no way i could ever think that there is no God. My parents and relatives were Catholics. I don't see that they are that devout but i can say they are just normal catholics. i went to a Catholic school, from the age of three to the end of my scholarly days. We pray everyday. Go to mass every Sunday. Rosaries where everywhere in our house. And oh yeah, those wooden and stone carved images of persons that every Catholic knows. But i still have that fear about God. I am not the type who just don't believe. I do and do things that my culture dictates how to believe in him.

Historically, every civilization that rose in this world dealt greatly with religion. they existed for the purpose of serving their god. may it be an invisible or tangible being. different civilizations have their own gods, in form or in character. They maybe pagans, idolaters or serving the true one but who could tell? who had the authority in this world that could discern that the one they are serving or believing is THE ONE. and in conclusion to this i had decided that man was the one who created god, not the other way around.

but as time goes by it was really hard for me not to believe in God. i just look at the order of this universe, how all the things you see were on its proper place, each has its own purpose. if there is no intelligent being greater than us put it all into its proper place, i believe there is no such order. look at the complexity of a man. its body, its brain, its emotion and its spirit. can we really create an exact replica of it? looking at the world itself it is really hard not to believe in God. it might have been perfect. we might have been perfect. but the imperfections we see was rooted on us.

it really takes faith not to believe when the world gives you all the evidence that there is God. when you decide not to believe, you created your own religion. it takes courage to even hold on to that faith.

but there is God. that is what i believe in right now. all the doubts and fears of his existence no longer lingers in my mind. belief in his existence was a default action etched in human beings because we are his creation. God made it plain to us to see so that we had no excuse not to believe in him.

My Idea Of Living Life

2008-12-09T19:49:00.003+08:00

I live for a day...it is as if everyday is my birthday

Yesterday was gone and there in no way that i can ever go back....so the thought of regrets is just a waste of time.

I will never know what tomorrow may bring...it may or may not come. I know that tonight i can close my eyes but unsure if tomorrow i will wake up again.

So will just live today as if there is no tomorrow...as if i have no past because in reality what i can really hold on to is just this day.

So try to learn more today
Be more grateful that this day came
Be more honest
Be more kind
Forgive easily
Give more chances
Laugh, smile, and cry more
Love more
Know God
...Because you don't know if you can do it again tomorrow

Pressure

2008-03-08T22:38:00.002+08:00

...another 18 more days of shutdown
...4 months before Trial Conversion 1
...2,000 equipments to be done per week
...rotating
...static
...instruments
...electrical

50% by july
overtime go signal by the gsap master
2 hours extended
saturdays included

i love this GAME!

10 UTOS SA MAGBABARIK

2008-03-08T20:28:00.007+08:00

eto nakita ko na ang hinahanap ko...d naman sa mahilig ako bumarik (ehem...) ngunit gusto ko lamang ding ibahagi sa nyo ang utos mula sa mga batangueno...pinapahanap ko ito sa isang blogger din kaso nauna yata akong nakakita...bago dumugo ang ilong ko sa purong tagalog na salita hindi na ko susubok na tapusin pa itong pasakalye ng mahaba (ay y**a naunsa man ni?!?! makalibog man magsulti ug tanang tagalog. kalisud diay...whew!)

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I. HUWAG MAKULIT HABANG NABARIK.
II. HUWAG MASIMOR SA PULUTAN.
III. HUWAG PATAGALIN ANG BASO AT MAY NAGAANTAY PA NG TATAGAY.
IV. HUWAG BUMARIK NG BUMARIK KAILANGAN BUMILI RIN.
V. ILAGAY SA TIYAN ANG BINARIK HUWAG SA ULO.
VI. MAGPAALAM KUNG UUWI NA AT HUWAG BIGLAANG PUPULAS.
VII. MAGTIRA NG PANLAKAD KAHIT HINLALAKI LAANG NG PAA.
VIII. HUWAG BUBUOG HABANG NABARIK.
IX. SIGURADUHING SA BASAYSAY ANG UWI KUNG BARIK NA.
X. HUWAG MANANAKIT NG ASAWA KAPAG GINAGARUTE KA. (KAYA KA BAGA, NAKUHA MO!)

Balitang Baganueno

2008-03-01T09:20:00.008+08:00

I must admit. When I first got here in Batangas, it was a culture shock. I grew up in Manila (in a Cebuano family) but by the age of 11 I moved here. Grabe sa lakas ng boses kung kausapin ka ng mga ito, which at first I got so scared kasi kala ko pinapagalitan nila ko lagi. Well matagal ko bago ko nalaman normal na iyon sa kanila when I am being tagged along sa mga bukid ng Batangas. Plus what a word!!! Kala mo if marunong ka magTagalog alam mo na, well marami kang words na maririnig sa kanila never mo pa narinig. Hmmm, medyo alanganin ako sabihin un kasi I was raised in a family of Bisayans kaya meron talaga words na di ko maintindihan. I'm confused if that's because Bisaya ako or malalim na Tagalog na talaga ang sinsabi nila.

Pero masarap pakinggan. Dami mo pwede matutunan, bukod sa accent nila. It is like ang mga Batangueno ay mga walking Tagalog Dictionary. =)

Eto basahin ng inam ang mga interview ng Media sa mga Batangueno (kinda cute actually)

1. Airplane Crashes in Batangas
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Tinanatanong ng reporter ang testigo sa pag crash ng eroplano sa Malapad na Parang, Lobo, Batangas

Media: Manong, paki describe nga ho ng airplane crash.

Mamay: Tinatangla ko laang ang buwig na sabang malapit ko nang tibain ay nasiglawan ko ang usok na pasirok ang dating.

Media: Ano ho ba ang una ninyong nakita?

Mamay: Aba'y una nga'y pasirok, maya-maya'y nagbatirok sumunod ay pairok-irok. Iyunnnn, ay di saka sumalpok tapos ang katapusa'y sumabog!

Media: Ano ho?!?!?

2. Barilan naman sa Tanauan, Batangas
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Media: Ano ho ba ang nangyari?

Mamay: Kami laang naman ho'y nakaungkot dine sa balisbisan ng bahay. Ay maya-maya ho ay bigla na laang na nagdagaaban, tapos nagpalahawan ay di kami naman ho'y nagkaripasan!

Media: Ano daw?!?!?

3. An airplane crashed at a town in Batangas (again).
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MEDIA: Manong, pakilarawan po ang nangyari.

LOLO: Ala eh, nakow, garne ga utoy... Kakaalmusal ko laang, gayak ako'y sisinsay sa kahanggan, ay natan-awan ko yaan sa alapaap ay nagsisilab. Bago sumirok ng papagay-on na kala mo'y papatak. Ginagaling na laang at sa sukalang areh sumugba, ay kung sa kabayanan ga, ay di panay mga utas!

MEDIA: Ho?

(ire pa ang isa...)

4. Vehicular Accident in Batangas
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MEDIA: 'Lo, kayo daw po'ng saksi?

LOLO: Ay uwoh! Ika'y pumarne dine sa silong. Kung ako pa naman ang dadais sa iyo para magsalaysay ay sulong!

MEDIA: 'Sensya na po sa abala.

LOLO: Ako'y naka-ungkot laang dine at karakaraka'y ako'y nagitla sa busina. May mag-inang hasing-hasi pa ng paghihikap ay gab-eng gab-e na! Bakin ga aring dyip ay saksakan ng tulin??? Ay di ako'y palakat na sa mag-inang di naiingli! Aba'y maiipit na'y naka-umis pa! Kainaman. Hayown! Sa pag-iwas ng dyip ay sumalya sa tarangka, tiklap ang tapaludung lasa ko'y kawangki ng nilamukos na kiche. Pagkakabugnot ng drayber! Ngalngal e!

MEDIA: Ano raw?

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Nose bleed talaga pag minsan...=D

Sige Na Nga...

2008-01-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

hindi na ako nagsusulat dito for the longest time dahil sa aking katamaran...
at sa endless na pagkayod sa trabaho na ang gusto mo na lang gawin paguwi ay matulog...
...at dahil sa...naku tamad lang talaga ako pag tinopak.
ayaw ko na nga ulit ituloy ito kaso dahil kay u.t.o.y. mapipilitan akong paganahin ang brain cells ko at dahil 2008 na kailangang magsipag muli sa aking "extra curricular " activities like:

1. Kailangan kong umupo at least twenty minutes at magpractice sa king drumset araw araw bago kalawangin ang mga bakal nito...
2. Kailangan kong bumalik sa paglalaro ng badminton dahil...oo maliit ako pero malakas kumain. hindi man lumaki ang mga braso ko pero ang tyan ko ang lumalaki sagwa naman cguro kung mangyari un
3. Kailangan ko ulit ibalik ang magbasa ng libro (at tapusin ito) every month
4. Magpractice araw araw ng panibagong tricks sa photoshop (dahil nauubos din ang creativity)
5. MagBLOG
6. Magdownload ng mga mp3 na hinihingi ni emerson galacio at mylene pastrano
7. Magbasa ulit ng Bible at magdasal (naks!)
8. Bawasan ang caffeine sa katawan
9. Gusto ko matuto magBASS
10. magisip ng bagong racket

sana magawa ko ito this year bago magbago ang isip ko....

MACARTHUR

2007-08-20T07:32:00.000+08:00

Merong Matigas Merong Malambot
Merong Tuwid Merong Kulot
Merong Buo Merong Durog
At Merong Taong Di Basta Lumulubog
Batung-Bato Ka Na Ba?
Rock-Rockan Na!

The other night as I was watching TV, I saw the advertisement of Fully Booked (A new establisment, a 5-story building full of books) and it featured must read books and one of them is Bob Ong's new..."MacArthur".

I have collected all of Bob Ong's piesces and this one I must buy. So last night I dropped by to our local bookstore and fortunately they have stocks and I bought one.

But as I started reading MacArthur I've noticed that this one is different from the past writings of Bob Ong. It is a short story...and it has a serious theme.

...Kwentong Addict. Usapang Addict. Salita ng mga Addict. Buhay ng apat na magkakaibigang Addict. This book is full of "shit" and curses from each character.

But I have found the lesson nearly at the end of the book when someone said.."Dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. Kung di mo pagtitiyagaan, anak, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. Sobrang lugi. Kung alam lang yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko e walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela..."

Nice one!

----Why this book was entitled "MacArthur"? ...from "shit" that doesnt want to go down that keeps on coming back no matter how many times you flush it. "I shall return" it says.

Yuck!

Basahin nyo na lang mga Bogaloids!!!

Hahaha!!

august birthday blues...

2007-08-11T09:17:00.000+08:00

madami sa min august celebrants
each has their way of celebrating it

...my brother
he went home...walang nangyari kasi nakalimutan ng nanay ko na birthday nya
i was supposed to treat him for lunch pero he went back to manila
sad =(

...my bandmates (at church)
celebrated at Bayview at Shell compound
pang pamilya ang dating

...my friends at shell
surprised "kiddy" party for them
with birthday party hats para sa mga matatandang gusto pa ring mgaing bata

...ako
di ko pa maisip kung anong gagawin ko
1. umuwi na lang at matulog
2. have some couple of friends at san mig station (kaso di ko trip ang band RNB kasi pag thursdays)
3. pumunta sa Library at Lipa (comedy bar na puno ng kabadingan)
4. pumunta ng manila (malayo kaso andun na lahat)

as of last night...im not in the mood to celebrate
papakuripot muna...

Come Back Down

2007-08-01T07:47:00.000+08:00

..a song from Lifehouse. Tagal ko ng fave ito...

The song has a deeper meaning though. If you take time to reflect on it, it is as if God is telling you "Yeah i know it all, i know how it really feels. if you're going to find your way again, come back to me."

I do not consider myself as religious, i don't believe in religion anyway. Faith is not based on religion, it is based on relationship.

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COME BACK DOWN

Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide

All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside

I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you

I think it's time to just move on

Procastinating

2007-07-24T14:19:00.000+08:00

...nakakatamad mag-update.
dami ko gusto ilagay kaso tinatamad ako...

Deeply In Love

2007-07-15T18:18:00.000+08:00

This song really strucked me...For days it plays over and over in my head.

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DEEPLY IN LOVE - Hillsong

In my life, you heard me say I love you
How do I show you it's true?
Hear my heart, it longs for more of you
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You have stollen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You and I together forever
Nothing can stand in the way
My love for you grows stronger each new day
I've fallen deeply in love with you

Turn Back Time

2007-07-08T19:22:00.000+08:00

How I wish I could turn back the time
And make everything right
Change the path I took?
Be more wiser than I should
Guarded myself from it all

I have this fear inside me
Eating me up, swallowing me whole
Covering my dreams
Cutting me into piesces

Negativity
Pessimism
This is what I become
Will someone accept it?

A broken vessel
Will not be bought that easily
Not be taken seriously
Reality

It's Complicated

2007-07-06T14:17:00.000+08:00

Sounds familiar?!
Yeah, I'm borrowing Friendster's tag for those people who has complicated relationships.
Those people who can't even describe what status they are in like now.
Are they single or not. Available or taken. In a relationship or domestic partnership.
That tag is used for those undecided, confused or...even, just playing around.

So much for that tag...I'm just using it for a thought that came to my mind.
LIFE IS SO COMPLICATED!

My friend and I were exchanging emails before lunch today. Over the course of our conversation I just concluded (with a sigh...hayyy) "Life so complicated lalo na as you grow older" and he said "C'est La Vie"

Why does it have to be?

Why to count millions of stars instead of only one?
Why to have a dozen of dead planet and just have one who have life?
Why can't we be in two places at once?
Why are there too many contradictions?
Why love exists and hate survives?
Why feel joy in the presence of pain?
Why are there too many questions and yet you have no choice but to live this 'thing' called LIFE?

The world goes round, people change
Everything turns
You found one, you lose one

When I was a child life was just simple. It is as if everything is a play. You don't think of the future that much. You just live for a day. Carefree. As you grow older you think of everything...the past, the present, and the future.

Life maybe complicated but in all its complications...it is worth living for.

Dad's Definition Of...

2007-06-23T13:47:00.000+08:00

I asked my dad over lunch what's the difference between a "stalker" and a "boylet" (well...he based it on me daw) Hahaha...I want to hit his head.

According to him:

Stalkers - ay ang mga lalaking may gusto sa yo pero ayaw mo

Boylets - ay ang mga lalaking may gusto sa yo pero ayaw mo kaso hinahayaan mo na lang kasi nakakalibre ka

...then he added "See, I wasn't born yesterday...I was born even before that

What's Your Story

2007-06-21T07:42:00.000+08:00

Stories can be easily made
Out from the heart
Into the mouth it speaks
Whatever reasons behind
It flows like a blood

Stories often life changing
It creates
It destroys
A life gained
A life lost

Stories evolve easily
Doesn't stay the same
Like a bird it frees
Like a lion it devours

Stories...
Can be forgotten
Or might stay...
To those who hear

Friday Syndrome

2007-06-08T14:36:00.000+08:00

Time is so slow every Friday
An hour and a half to go but how I wish it is already 4
I'm watching this amazing drummer Mike Portnoy...excellent!
From a progressive metal band...Dream Theater!

Who's the Dream Theater anyway?
From Wikipedia.com here' a short description about the band

Dream Theater is a progressive metal band formed by three students at the Berklee College of Music in 1985. In the 22 years since its inception, Dream Theater has become one of the most commercially successful progressive bands since the height of progressive rock in the mid-1970s, despite being relatively unknown in mainstream rock circles. The band's two highest selling albums are Images and Words (1992), which was awarded a gold record although it reached only #61 on the Billboard 200 charts; and Awake (1994) which reached #32 on the Billboard 200. Dream Theater has sold over two million albums in the U.S., and over six million albums and DVDs worldwide.

The band is well known for the technical proficiency of its instrumentalists, who have won many awards from music instruction magazines. Dream Theater's members have collaborated with many other notable musicians. Guitarist John Petrucci was named as the third player on the G3 tour for six times, more than any other invited guitarist, following in the footsteps of Eric Johnson, Robert Fripp, and Yngwie Malmsteen.

The World Has Its Rights

2007-06-06T15:21:00.000+08:00

I was so out of place in this world I am in right now. What was I thinking coming to a place like this? From a company of fifteen to a hundred or so. I've never been to a place where there are so many people to deal with. From the art world to oil and gas. From creativity to technicality.

When I finally got the job I was, well, a bit excited and mostly confused. Career wise it was not wise...at all. I just wanted a job not far from home.

Working here was easy. I came to understand the nature of my work...so far and so good. The people here has its variation. Different thoughts, personalities and characters.

One thing that shocked me was GOSSIP. Yeah, even in men's world...come to think of it. Someone told me men are better gossiper than women. Haha! Guess they are!

I was a victim of gossip and prejudice here. At first I just wanted to "kill 'em all". But later on I got to, well, get along. And because of that I developed my own quote as a refuge.

Here it goes:
"The world has its right to judge you. But you also have a right to prove or disprove their judgment!"

Yey! So what?! I don't care what they think of me! I know myself better than them. Saka sino nahirapan kakaisip, ako ba? Sila naman di ba?

A Comeback

2007-06-05T12:44:00.000+08:00

Friday...
After ten or so years...
My feet led me to my last memory of her...
First of June...

Her grave lie beneath an old tree
I've got nothing to place at her head
Not even a candle
Not even a flower

Her grass used to be trimmed
Green as the bermuda supposed to be
But it is now withered...dried up
There are other dead people beside her now

I don't know why I can't even get close
Maybe because I've changed a lot
Or maybe because I just don't want to remember
How she was buried 23 years ago

Mary June Abella Torrefranca Taotjo
June 2, 1957 to November 6, 1984
...a beginning...and an end

When you're happy and you know it...

2007-05-29T07:07:00.000+08:00

CLAP! CLAP! YAHOO!!!

Out of nowhere my dad suddenly said..."Bili kita drumset turuan mo ko."
And we did! Yesterday!

Yehey!

Missing Link

2007-05-17T14:04:00.000+08:00

I pulled out her picture once again from my wallet. I always keep it to where I can easily find it just so I can refresh my mind to what she really looks like. That's what I do whenever her image becames blurry on my mind. That's all I got from her. That's the least I could do to remember her.

I don't remember much about her. I don't really know her. So many stories been told about her. Wonderful words spoken. But to all of which I can't relate. Her blood flows in me but I will forever have a blank description to the woman who carried me inside her for months. But I can't blame myself for such ignorance and unrecognition.

She died when I was three. It seemed that time was taken from me.

Fragments of memories doesn't help much. It is so unclear. There's a hole in me. A missing link to who I really am.

Often time I wish she's still here, my life would have been a lot different from what I have right now. But sometimes I just leave it be for I am content to what had happened so far in my life.

The first time I heard this song on MTV I was struck by its message and then I was certain to whom I will offer it.

This is to the woman to which I was rooted...the mother that I've never known.

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"Gone Away" - The Offspring (Ixnay on the Hombre)

Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal, it's so unfair

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels, yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

Leaving flowers on your grave
To show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could tradeI would

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings, yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away

I reach to the sky
And call out your name
Oh please let me tradeI would

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels, yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

The Silent Scream

2007-05-16T14:37:00.001+08:00

Deceit...
Doubt...
Insecutiry...
Infidelity...
Fear...

I'm wandering in circles
I can't get out of it
And so it seems
Where did all began?
How will it end?

Precautions didn't came on time
Advices came in too late
Those words flew away
Before I was able to make use of them

How will you able to rescue me?
Help me find my way out?
Start all over again?
Or are you another hole to dig in?

Do I still deserve to hope?
Do broken wings still can fly?
Does my scarred face still has its place in you?
Or was it all just a vain desire?

Please accept me for what I have become...

WISH LIST

2007-05-12T01:08:00.000+08:00

hai....1:00 AM na gising pa rin ako. pano ba naman kasi eto ako nagddownload ng mga albums hindi lang para sa sarili ko, kundi para sa mga kaibigang bato ang mga ulo. para san ba ito? wala lang para sa ikaliligaya lang ng mga tenga namin. dahil dito nakabuo sila ng wish list ng mga rock bands na gusto ulit nila marinig ang mga tugtugan. naguumpisa pa lang ako...goodluck na lang kasi masyadong matrabaho ang kanilang mga kahilingan.

Wish list:
1. Sepultura
2. Megadeath
3. Pantera
4. Black Sabbath
5. AC/DC
6. Soulfly
7. Coul Chamber
8. Guns N Roses

...ako ay isang download master...ngunit isa ring alipin. waaahhhh....
...hai d ko na kaya. matutulog na muna ako...

The Unforgiven Vs. The Unforgiven II

2007-05-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

Which is better?

The songs are no stranger to a rock band listener. Composed by James Hetfield of the Metallica, these two songs will definetely give you an LSS (last song syndrome), at least for me. I've been savoring myself with Metallica's songs for almost three weeks now. That's why this thought of comparing the two Unforgiven songs came into me. Well i am a little biased because i like the II more than the first but for the sake of my friend emerson who likes the first more...i dont care! hehe. he has his chance to comment to this post.

There's a more dramatic introduction in II than in I. The Unforgiven II's intro gives more anticipation to the song before the plucking part. The duet of the guitar and the drums makes your head bang unlike the intro of the first which is some what melo. But I like the first's guitar solos. it is a mixture of classic and rock. the two guitar blended it well. James Hetfield's vocals is much stronger and dramatic on the second. I like the drum pattern on the ssecond. But hey there will be no Unforgiven II if there is no Unforgiven. In terms of lyrics it was like a story. The Unforgiven tells his story of being a person in misery, being...yeah, unforgiven to his mistakes. The Unforgiven II is the continuation of the story...he asks if he'll open the door to the one he is waiting for but like him, the person is also unforgiven.

here's the lyrics:

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The Unforgiven

New blood joins this earth
And quickly he's subdued
Through constant pained disgrace
The young boy learns their rules
With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on he's known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will they'll take away

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been
What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please them all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
He's battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been
What I've feltWhat I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven
You labeled me
I'll label you
So I dub thee unforgiven

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The Unforgiven II

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you
Lay beside me, under wicked sky
The black of day, dark of night, we share this paralyze
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining...

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you....
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, But she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there...

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you....
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are you're eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you....
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
The one who waits for you....
Oh what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you.... (So I dub thee unforgiven....)
Oh, what I've felt....Oh, what I've known....
I take this key (never free...)
And I bury it (never me...) in you
Because you're unforgiven too....
Never free....
Never me....
'Cause you're unforgiven too....Oh

hello world!!!

2007-05-08T08:27:00.000+08:00

this is my first post from this url. oh well, i've been posting blogs from different services but what i hate about it is that it sends notifications to people's email addresses every time i make an update. im a bit of a moody person. sometimes i just want to write just for the passion of it. and for me it is not necessary to send notifications of it every time i write one.

with this spot...well, i can go anonymous =)